But, now it is spring again. The birds are coming back. The air is filled with hunting hawks once again. The unbelievably soothing melody of mourning doves come from the tree rows and the ground has opened up allowing water in and life to emerge out once again.
We are in the greenhouse, sowing seeds. It so wonderful to gather inside of a sunny warm greenhouse during the often cool and windy spring. Inside of the greenhouse we get to push the seasons ahead of schedule. We get to make our own soil, plant seeds of our liking into it, and turn up the heat to 70 degrees. New seedlings emerge, ready for a life, a life of providing sustenance to us. One tiny little seed in the palm of my hand can produce a hundred pounds of tomatoes. The seasonal life of farming in such a northern climate can be tough. We joke that we are plants ourselves now. Going dormant with the weather and growing and thriving with the sun. We sow our seeds, plow our fields, and open up our hearts to a season of abundance.
Abundance, it is such an important concept for us farmers. Each year we all hope for an abundant harvest, abundant rainfall, abundant sunshine. Here at Riverbound Farm we are also dependent on an abundance of CSA members. Community members who want to experience the seasonality of eating, the abundance of a certain crop, and the value of community. Each spring as we are sowing our seeds and putting our mindset and hearts into an abundance mentality we are also battling the urge to worry. Will we get enough CSA members? Will we get bad storms? Will we have good employees? Will our crops be abundant? So much of our farm is out of our control. We are working within mother natures confines, yet still we know everything will be ok. We proactively work towards living in abundance here on the farm. Yes, it did take 11 years of farming for me to finally begin the journey of stopping worrying. I have seen many a hail storms pound down upon my fields to know that the resilience of a farm cannot and will not be stopped by a storm. I have had a river flow over my fields only to harvest more crops that season then the year before. I have lost good animals to accidents and gained new ones to leaps of faith. I choose to live in abundance. I know that this farm will give life and nourish me, I know that I am a skilled and experienced farmer, I know that I am blessed with an endless supply of what I need when I need it from the universe.
Still I worry sometimes. I have been thinking about this a lot lately as we wait for our CSA shares to sell and as I give in to worry. I know that worry effects so many of us. Lack of abundance is a state of being that so much of our society thrives on. The results are greed, gluttony, hording of resources, and competitiveness. In our capitalist society we are taught competitiveness. As soon as a child enters school they are pitted against each other through the process of grading and sports. We then go on to compete for college acceptance and then finally against each other for a job. Poverty and the pinch on the working class is real. The rich are getting richer and the poor poorer. The system that we are operating within is creating a lack of abundance state of being for the entire planet. We take it all for ourselves and consume whatever it is as fast as we can. Examples of this can be seen in our history; slavery, colonialism, clear-cutting of forests, over-fishing of the ocean, the extinction of so many animals due to habitat loss. These are only a few examples of capitalism's unjust consumption of people and resources due to an, all for me, none for you mentality. The root of this abuse is lack of abundance. Worry that there won't be enough for you, so you better compete better or take first.
I know that humanity can overcome this. I know that communities can work together cooperatively. We can all cooperatively work together responsibly using resources and sharing with one another in an effort to fully live in an abundant state of being. I do not need to fear and neither do you. We can all work together on this planet, sharing, co creating a safe healthy life for everyone equally. So this spring I am focusing on fully living in abundance. My community, my farm, my family, my health, my energy, whenever my well feels low I know an infinite supply of abundant life giving energy is available to me to tap into.
The fields on this farm are abundant and so am I.